A week off...

Ello,

Hope everyones good! Currently I’m on my second day of my week off. I had such a productive day yesterday which made me feel on top of the world. To wake up from a decent sleep and have the mind set of having all the time in the world that day to do whatever I wanted was blissful. It was a dry slightly sunny day so I made the effort to go for a walk with the dog early on which set me up for the day instantly. I think I sat down twice for a brew and some food but continued to be productive cleaning the house and finally turning my mess of a room in to a space of zen again. This morning however I woke very early after multiple bad dreams and the rain has been pouring all day… I hate when the day is dark and dull because it makes me feel so lethargic and unwilling to do anything. It’s been a bit of a battle to not sit down and do nothing today but we’ve achieved little things off of my list for the week so that’s progress!

I’ve said before that writing lists and planning goals for the week or each day helps so much with your progression. It’s what I’m trying to follow the example of this week being away from work. I need time to refresh, recharge and catch up with myself because I’ve really let things slip recently. Here are some of my bigger goals I’m trying to work on the next few months. I’ll be talking about them in separate posts but here’s what ill be working towards:

Fitness

I’ve used fitness to tackle my mental health for a couple of years now and it really doesn’t make the difference. I was really motivated when I first started however its been a lot harder with the pandemic and gyms closing etc. Once you get out of the routine of things then its hard to motivate yourself back in to the mind set. However I’m confident that I will bring myself back in to the swing of things soon and I can’t wait.

Health and Eating

It’s good to exercise but you need to compliment this with being healthy in the first place. My eating pattern is disgusting at the moment. With being anxious a lot I’ve gotten in to the habit of feeling nauseous all of the time and telling myself I don’t want to eat or I can’t eat because it will make me worse. I was snacking on and off but having pretty much one meal a day which is not good! Already this week I’ve moved to at least 2/3 meals a day including snacks in between (bulk season here week come..). I’m trying to eat as healthy as I can but I’ve not cut any treats or bad foods because I just need to put on healthy weight and treat myself so I do actually eat substance. My sleep pattern is also a disaster. Again anxiety has effected this a lot. Over thinking work constantly and/or general life of being lazy and not looking after myself means I sleep late or wake up constantly in the night. I’m hoping this week of zen allows that to stop and I will catch up on a healthier routine for myself.

Love for myself

Soon I’m doing a post about this as I have a lot to say on the matter but for now this a big goal for me to work on! Being comfortable within myself to not hide away from people and just accept if people don’t like me for me then its their issue not mine. Not allowing others to make me feel less of myself when I’m just doing me and that’s okay. Also being comfortable with how I look. There was a time a bit ago I hated seeing myself in the mirror because I was judging myself against other people. Again I look how I look, I can’t change it and I don’t want to change it because this is how I am and that again is okay. I’ve worked on my skin a lot and I’m trying not to wear as much make up as I don’t need it so we are progressing with this slowly.

Relationships

From loving myself to allowing others to love me and not pushing them away. We faced hard lessons again with relationships the past couple years and they will continue. But I need to let go of the ones lost or who have done me wrong and move on to better times. I have good friends around me at the moment which is what I need always! Love you all! The love life is on the ropes as always and there are confusing elements still that I am trying to figure out and let go but its a process and we will deal with it with time. The lone wolf continues on.

Blog

Finally for now this blog is a constant goal. I’ve really enjoyed it so far and will continue to do so. I’ve not advertised it properly yet as I’m writing this currently. I haven’t wanted many to see it just yet as I’m not sure how people will react. However the more I talk about it to the ones who are reading the more I remind myself it is for me and peoples opinions on it don’t matter! If people want to read it they can, if they don’t and I get two reads a week on it then that’s also fine. It’s only about my life I’m not trying to influence the world or make a big deal out of anything. So soon I may choose to share it with more people we shall see.

This was just a catch up really and almost an index in to what I will be progressively working on and writing about the next few months so if you’re interested tag along. Also as I’ve not been out and managed to take some decent scenic pictures for the covers on my posts you’re just going to have to deal with Mickey posing for them instead. This one is from when we went for our first walk of the week yesterday.

Have a blessed week!

Jade x